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| 007: Tuesday, December 6, 2011: 7AM EST |
[Tuesday
December 6th, 2011 at 8:22am] |
[private: readable by Sophie and Noah]
I feel like such a whore, and unfortunately, those feelings are completely justifiable.
Gray. Tyler. Lance.
I allowed myself to be roped into a casual relationship because I really liked Gray. I couldn't have him any other way. I don't think that's enough anymore, though. Gray has made it clear that he wants me. The only reason I haven't agreed is because I am in lo have feelings for Tyler. Obviously, that wasn't a plan. I was supposed to jump at the opportunity to be with Gray when he finally decided he wanted to settle down. I don't think I'm willing to do that, though. I don't want to stop seeing Tyler.
And Lance… he's just along for the ride. I mean, I adore him, but I don't have feelings for him… not the way I have feelings for Gray and Tyler. I've been spending so much time with him because he's not complicated.
Ugh. I hate feeling like a whore. I hate feeling like I'm leading someone on… even though I don't exactly know who I'm leading on. I don't want to choose between them. At the same time, though, I don't like going between them. I feel really slutty when I do.
This was so much easier when boys had cooties.
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[Tyler]
Good morning, sexy. I hope you have a great day.
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So. Hungry.
So. Tired.
Need. Food.
Need. Caffeine.
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| 006: Tuesday, October 25, 2011: 12:30AM EST |
[Tuesday
October 25th, 2011 at 11:27am] |
Tired does not even come close to describing how I feel right now. I really screwed myself over when I traded shifts with Lindsay. It was worth it, of course, but it will be a small eternity before I have another night off.
So… Soph… what are the chances that I can talk you into giving me a massage? I promise to return the favor… or, you know, I could clean the bathroom even though it's technically your turn. Actually, I'd do just about anything to get that massage.
For now, I'm going to crash. 6AM comes far too early when you don't get to sleep until after midnight.
[Tyler]
My bed feels empty. I've decided that this is your fault.
[/Tyler]
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| 005: Monday, August 8, 2011: 8PM EST |
[Monday
August 8th, 2011 at 3:09pm] |
[private: readable by Sophie and Noah]
I don't know what to do.
That's a lie.
I know what my heart is telling me to do.
If I do that, though, one of them is going to be hurt. I don't want to hurt either of them.
Ugh. I hate this. I honestly think I liked it better when no guys wanted me. Life was certainly easier.
I know that Tyler will stand by me no matter what decision I make. I don't think Gray will… unless I choose him, of course.
Men suck. Clearly, I should become a lesbian. It's not like I hate fooling around with girls. Well, it's not like a hate fooling around with Claudia. I honestly don't think other girls would be as skilled as she is.
Alright. I'm not built to be a lesbian.
I'm almost glad I had to work tonight. It gives me time to clear my head. Too bad I'm not actually clearing my head, huh?
[/private]
This should be a no brainer, but... you need to tip your waitress. This is not a difficult concept. My bills don't get paid if you don't tip me for my hard work. I'm just sayin'.
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| 004: (backdated) Thursday, June 9, 2011: 1PM EST |
[Monday
June 13th, 2011 at 11:17am] |
My flight leaves in 27 minutes. That means I have 27 minutes of freedom. Well, not really. That means I'm stuck sitting in the terminal for the next 27 minutes. The wait shouldn't be too bad. Who knows, maybe my flight will board early. (I won't be getting my hopes up.)
[Sophie]
So... weird...
Yesterday was Wednesday. I took Gray dinner, like I always do. He insisted that I stay, like he always does. This time, though, he ran a bath for me. It was weird, but nice. I fell asleep in the tub. He helped me out and helped me get into bed. I didn't see him this morning before he left for class. Remind me to thank him at some point.
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Oh Oh! I'm starving! Maybe I'll see if I can find food! See you guys later!
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| 003: Friday, April 8, 2011: 3PM EST |
[Friday
April 8th, 2011 at 4:39pm] |
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Bored. So incredibly bored. Who'll be entertaining me until I go out tonight?
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| 002: Thursday, January 13, 2010: 5PM EST |
[Thursday
January 13th, 2011 at 4:48pm] |
CLAUDIA JONES
Now that I have your attention…
You are all mine tomorrow night. Make the appropriate arrangements. I'm picking you up at seven. I would tell you to dress sexy, but you do that without trying.
See you tomorrow.
[private: readable by Sophie]
Gray called me, last night. I didn't bring him dinner like I usually do. He missed me.. or he missed the food. The two are connected. I've decided not to dwell on it. I think it's good for him to miss me every once in a while. I wouldn't want him to take me for granted.
[/private]
I have an earlier shift this Saturday. Tips are better when I work the late shift, but I don't have getting off early enough to enjoy the fact that I'm a hot twenty year old.
Back to work in fifteen minutes. This is how you make the big bucks.
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| 001: Thursday, December 23, 2010: 12PM EST |
[Thursday
December 23rd, 2010 at 2:23pm] |
Merry Christmas, everyone! May you get everything your heart desires.
[private to Gray]
You're mine, tonight. Thought I'd let you know.
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